I am out â€œsickâ€ today, but I am not really faking it. I am in need of some down time. Work has been hectic of late and I just need to clear out my brain. Since I routinely break the 4th commandment, I thought today would be a great day to make amends.
I am also getting tested for allergies today. Our whole family is getting allergy shots so we can get a dog or cat in a few years. Jenn and Ethan have been getting shots for about a year now. I have procrastinated getting tested, so today is the day. I canâ€™t say I am looking forward to it. Last time I was tested, my arms felt like they were on fire for hours. I am really allergic to cats and of course that is what they will be testing on me.
As I have mentioned before, I am reading two books on Christianity, A Case for Faith and Blue Like Jazz. I am starting to feel a little better about my faith in general, but I am still not motivated to get off my spiritual butt. Maybe having some time off today will help. I am co-leading a study on Case, it is kind of interesting. I need to bite my lip more often. On a couple of occasions, someone has express doubt only to have someone else gloss over it with some platitude. My natural reaction is to torpedo the platitude and validate the doubt. I am not sure people are â€œreadyâ€ for my level of cynicism. I still find it amazing that in spite of all my doubt, I keep slogging through. In my mind that is the very nature of faith.
They are starting a Weight Watchers group at my work. I am debating on whether or not to attend. Every time I go on a diet, I loose a lot of weight followed by an extended period of weight gain and 5 to 10 additional pounds. I really need to loose weight, but if I were to gain it back, I am dangerously close to the 300 lb mark which is a psychological killer for me. If Jesus could heal leapers, why canâ€™t he give me great abs? (I know, I know, I am going to burn in hell for that one.)
Not much going on. Ethan is still struggling with reflux. He throws up every couple of days. Jenn took the brunt of it Monday night. She was doing the enema and he started throwing up. The visual was stunning. His head was in the toilet barfing and shit was flying everywhere from the other end. It sounds pretty horrible, but we (including Ethan) were laughing our heads off about it last night. I was a little gun shy doing the enema last night, but thankfully all bodily fluids stayed in there designated locations. Ethan is getting an endoscope next month to see what is going on.
Wellâ€¦going to take a shower so I donâ€™t stink for the allergy doctor.