I am going away for the weekend. I need a day of no work and no Blackberry. I was going to leave it at home, but I just found out my Grandmother broke her hip. At 89, I am pretty sure that is a death sentence. So I have to be â€œavailableâ€ for â€œthe call.â€
I was in a training class today. When I got back to my desk, I had 98 emails. My brain just hurts. I am toying with the idea of changing back to being a simple test engineer. No meetings, no employees, no managers, no directors. Just me a PC and a test plan.
I am just tired. I like my job, but sometimes the grind just wares on me. I am tired of making decision. I want to be assimilated. I want someone else to think for me. I want to believe the propaganda. I want to believe the ice caps melting is a fluke. I want to believe everything is going to be OK. I want to think the medical community knows what they are doing. I want to believe the insurance is going to pay the bills. I want to believe our leaders are more intelligent than I am. I want people to say they are well instead of great.
I just want to see something green.