I had a bit of a scare today. Today was the day for Ethan to have his stitches removed. Because he has had so much medical poking and prodding done to him, he had to be put under general anesthesia. Well he woke up in pain, with a fever, and his back was swollen. Oh shit, not again. I had Jenn call the surgeon. He said that if he had a fever, he could not go under. At the same time we were worried that we were going to have to have yet another surgery to install a shunt.
Luckily the fever was low enough that they could take out the stitches. But as soon as they did, he started leaking again. Double shit.
We are in a wait and see mode right now. He put in more stitches, but the dissolvable kind this time. He also put him on a mega antibiotic. The discharge may just be puss from a spinal infection. Hopefully the antibiotic will solve the problem. But who knows.
I prayed this morning; but really I am not sure why. I guess I should pray â€œthy will be doneâ€ (whatever dudeâ€¦Ben International Version) instead of for healing. I keep praying for healing or even that it doesnâ€™t get worse. But that does not seem to be working. And the surest sign of insanity is to keep doing something the same way and expecting a different result.
Maybe God thinks I am a stalker and he just wants me to leave him alone. I think he wants to break up. He thinks I am too needy. My prayers probably go on the answering machine and he erases them as soon as he hears my voice. The devil will probably serve me with a restraining order. Thatâ€™s OK, I will get His rabbit.