So, one of my coworkers is leaving the company to: â€œspend more time with her family.â€ That is business speak for forced resignation. They are having a going away breakfast for her later this morning. This person tried to get me fired a few years back because I publicly disagreed with one of her initiatives. She filed a complaint alleging I was creating a hostile work environment. I was later cleared of the whole thing and she was reprimanded for stirring up the pot. Actually that event, a couple of years back, may have been the beginning of her end.
Anyway I struggle with letting this all go. At the time she was making my life miserable, I was smack in the middle of some rather unpleasant medical issues (if you read my blog at all, you know what I mean). I was terrified that I might find myself unemployed and without medical insurance. This is all in the past, but I have mostly steered clear of her since that time.
My dilemma is this: I am the leader of a staff of 7. If I donâ€™t go to this event, it will make a stink. I hate the idea of being there and being insincere. I want to â€œturn the other cheek.â€ But if I am not *there* yet, isnâ€™t it dishonest to pretend that all is well? I want to be over this. I have prayed about this. I have prayed for her and her family. But still I struggle with letting it go.
I am sure I will go. The division is big enough that I should be able to hide in a corner. But I wish I were a better person/Christian. But and I am being honest hereâ€¦.I am just not quite that evolved.