…I watch but nothing moves today. –Seuss
It is raining out today. It is perfect weather to match my mood.
My mom called me yesterday. My cousin John is dying. He has a staph (sp?) infection. That coupled with his alcoholism appear to be a toxic combination. He is on a ventilator and they give him about 24 hours.
I have not seen him in about 20 years. It is just weird to think I may never see him again (no really). I just hope he regains consciousness long enough to put his life in order.
Jenn and I also went to Ethan’s IEP (Individualized Educational Plan) meeting today. It is just frustrating sometimes. Ethan is developmentally average or above that of his peers. Yet because he misses so much school due to illness, they want to keep him classified as Special Needs. This would not be a bad thing if that classification did not carry along with it a lot of baggage. It did not help matters that he is going to miss another week of school next week to recover from his surgery.
Although I am becoming a pro at the whole child surgery thing, it still weighs heavy on me. It is like knowing you are going to be taken hostage. The minute they go into the operating room, you give up a huge chunk of control over your child. There is just no getting “used” to it. I am pretty sure everything will be fine, but you just never know. It is sad, every time he has surgery, I mentally plan his funeral. I know this is a terrible thing, but I do it none the less. On second thought, no, it is just plain sick.
Anyway, I will be holding my breath for the next week and a half.