Today is one of those days that I am just marking time. There is motion and activity but no purpose.
Ethan had another invasive test yesterday. I had to hold him down while a nurse inserted a catheter. The room was full of people all huddled around him.
It is difficult for me as a parent to watch this sometimes. I know that the pain is necessary, but I wonder what crap like this is doing to him psychologically. I mean after all teach him to keep other people clear of his â€œprivateâ€ parts. Then for medical reasons this rule is routinely violated. What the hell am I doing to his head?
The test was to see why he still has problems with leaking. Turns out he has bladder/kidney reflux. Add that to the list.
So anyway, I am stressed out and not particularly productive. This too shall pass.